Friday, March 27, 2015

Organizing For America Inspiration - As Submitted

I was inspired by Senator Bob Dole, coming to my small town in Kansas (yes, the Dorothy and Toto jokes remain the same.), campaigning for the state House early in the 1960’s.  Dressed in a fine suit, having his attractive assistant handing out Dole pineapple, being strong in stature and talking with people he knew not inspired me to check out public service.

My best friend’s father had a framed hand signed letter from President John F. Kennedy in his home office, thanking him for things he had done.  I spent considerable time looking at that letter.

My Grandmother had a picture of President Eisenhower and his wife above her telephone stand which included one of her bibles written in German that came with her to America.  She taught me how important it was to support our country and pray for our leaders.  It didn’t matter to her his term in office was over.  She still prayed for the Kansas President every morning.

Being asked to campaign for the Democratic Presidential candidate in the early 1970’s, folding flyers and door knocking, made me feel I was part of an organization much larger than anything I had experienced before.

Time came when I was selected to attend Boy’s State.  My Senator and high school counselor encouraged me to run for Governor.  That surprised me, but in hindsight, is inspiring.

After a 32 year career in the computer industry, I became disabled and lost my job.  My money was drained on expensive medications and soon later had to file for government assistance, something I was paying in to since the age of 15, maxing out the required taxing for many years.

After years of recovery, I was able to start giving back.  In my 50’s I joined the AmeriCorps VISTA, volunteer in service to America, program.  I was assigned as a field organizer for NAMI, national alliance on mental illness.  My position was going in to communities, bringing people together to start a self-sustaining support group.

After contracts were completed, I continued to serve.  I was an alumni of the Corporation of National and Community Services.  I worked 2 inaugurals and MLK days of service in Washington, DC.  I paid for all of my expenses to be part of that organization much greater than myself.

On the first trip, I worked making care packages for our Military at RFK stadium.  The second trip was to be a greeter at the National Mall, giving directions and talking with people from other countries.

I was on the Metro, headed to meet a friend in Silver Springs, MD. when the call came to become a founding member of OFA.  I accepted without reservation.

Today, my eight month old granddaughter, Madison Hope Conyers, wears her ‘Organizer in Training’ uniform I purchased from the OFA store for Christmas.

Today, my health is failing.  I have no regret of the deeds I attempted to do, at the best of my ability.

My granddaughter will be taking my place.

Thank you.

Randy Conyers
Randall (Mott) Conyers
Wichita, KS 67230
316-618-4660












Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Call the political satire what it is. Call it a vehement expression of disapproval, downright nasty.

Quote from the newspaper article

Republican Sen. Mary Pilcher-Cook from Shawnee spoke out against the amendment in the Senate, saying it would make lobbyist filings "exponentially more complicated."

We want to make it easier for citizens to participate in the political process, not make it more difficult, Pilcher-Cook said.


Response via Facebook, very irradiated mood.

Randall Mott Conyers Had to be briefed on this for states that passed similar law. Made to be a HUGE issue. No, could not be intimidated. Advocate to Registered Lobbyist, if required, and filing reports is a piece of cake, meaning even I can do it (and have done it). 

Political satire... How difficult is it to change a roll of toiler paper? Ask Sen. Mary Pilcher-Cook

Bob Brookens Randy: That's not satire.

Bob, I am unhappy. Call it a vehement expression of disapproval, downright nasty. I would prefer to read a censure from the late Bill Meier. In hindsight I could have consulted with FB friend Eric Meyer before making a keystroke. I did not and have no regret.

John Hanna and other FB friends. Bob Brookens and I know each other. He can sing. I can not. Our children are friends. They have gone on many trips together from the Rockies to Mexico. From time to time, I have been known to write my opinion. My time is short and do not have time to submit to newspapers. I have higher priorities coming up soon.

But I do want to say this, a man of many words.


There are good people in the Senate.  They are hard working men and women who are problem solvers.  Besides politics, they understand business.  They can look at a profit and loss statement and find ways to generate revenue, not looking at line items under expenses without thought.  It has been instilled in me, for all entities, it is good to make a profit, without the expense of hurting your people.  That applies to the lowest on the pay scale to the most high.  You don’t start slashing through the numbers just to make ends meet.  You look at how you can generate more revenue.  You look at the impossible and make it so.  You look at improving your services, more clients, finding niche markets, etc.  If you have to experiment, you experiment.  If it doesn’t work, that’s okay.  You cut your losses short and try again.

During the process, if you don’t make a mistake, you are not doing your job.  You are not considered a failure.  The finger of blame is not pointed.  When reporters ask, “What does it feel like making 999 mistakes?”, you reply in the way of Thomas Edison, “Young man, I have not failed.  I have found 999 ways how not to make a light bulb.”  You don’t give up.  You don’t continue to beat a dead horse.  You look down deep and find that entrepreneurial spirit that is in each of us.  You become an inventor, the kind that is recorded in history. 

You take the knowledge of IBM and use a similar mindset.  To keep the story short, IBM could not make a personal computer for public consumption.  Follow that story and you’ll find success.  I had the privilege of looking at the computers in Boca Raton, FL that were built, proving they didn’t work for the marketplace.  I got to talk with the developers.  I could not find a failure on any team.  I did not see people losing their jobs because of making a mistake or having a disagreement with upper management.  What I saw was success.  Profits were made.

If you want to call Governor Brownback something besides his name, call him a Robert Fulton, the perceived failure who was not.  Gov. Sam has thick ears and the smarts to keep waving and smiling.  He’s not stupid and he isn’t dumb.  He knew to take the advice of others, who were perceived to be smarter, very influential and has the art of persuasion. A decision was made.  Relative to economics, Arthur Laffer can be very influential and knows how to persuade.  He’s got the best jokes on the speaking circuit.  Heck, even I like to hear him talk.  I’ll view him on YouTube, because I want to.  I’ll be the first to say his advice found a way that didn’t work.  Am I going to call him a failure or mistake? No.  Am I going to call Brownback a failure or mistake?  No. 

You don’t become a worry-wart and fear what could happen if it doesn’t work.  How many letters did I receive from a US Senator that ended with talking more about worrying if my great ideas didn’t work?  Certainly, it more than once. Did I feel like a failure?  No.  I found things that Senator Brownback gave reason to and told me he was not in favor of it. He worried about if it didn’t work.  Did that stop me from suggesting other ideas? Absolutely not. 

Here’s the bottom line.  Revenue is down.  The Senate has a legitimate correction that has a major impact on stopping the bleeding.  It needs to be made so.  No one is a failure.  No one made a mistake.  It is part of the process to make things better.

You put down that slashing knife.  I want to see the dramatic opposition stop to all things and get the problem fixed.  No excuses.

Lastly, I would like to state before having a procedure done this Thursday, I have thick eyes.  I’ll do my best to read the posts.  My Illness has affected my eyesight, like the other things the Doctors are going to explore for. But what I can do is type without eyes and have periods when the brain has cognitive thinking.  If you read to this point and don’t understand, read it again.  If you still don’t like it, read it one more time.


It’s an experiment of words.  If my words are not understood, I will write again. I will attempt to make the necessary fixes and publish again.  I am not going away.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

The motivation behind Mott goes rogue. Writing during March Madness

The Fedora Hat for the "DC look" during Kansas Medicaid Expansion Hearings until vote is taken





Granddaughter Madison showing off her version of the pink fedora while watching Grandpa write his correction written testimony.  Playing by Sandlot rules.  Go Grandpa!

Who said family genetics were not important?

Once you believe your hearing testimony in person or written form is over, its the end of the chapter. But my generation grew up with playing by sandlot rules.  In our Senior Citizen years, nothing has changed.  We still play by what we know.  Some have learned how Democracy works, giving them 2 sets of ground rules.  Some have chosen one over the other and some that will play either way.  I prefer the vote to making rules as you play the game, but that doesn't stop me from playing. I can play either way.  Sometimes you think you are playing by one set while your opponent is playing by the other.  There is no need to be dis-respectful.  You merely adjust. The end of the chapter becomes the beginning to the next.


Thursday, October 23, 2014

Segue to Attention to Hearing Voices, my opinion

I have been made aware of seminars, webinars, support groups and web sites, all from social media, on the topic of hearing voices. "Hearing Voices" must be an "in" topic this time of year.  A new book is in promotion with household names about those and relatives of those having what some people call the "Human Experience".

Reasons for hearing voices are dominant in mental illness, substance abuse and living within a tribe.  I have not given any objection to what has been written on the subject.  My personal research with those who have this experience always ends with a question I have, "Have you told these voices to stop?"  A common answer is simply a puzzled look.  The question requires a one word response, either yes or no.  I heard no vocal response.  Is it not reasonable to tell someone to quit talking to them, as they have no desire to communicate with the other?

Being bipolar seems to give me card blache in a mental health hospital, or at least it did when people were allowed to go outside, with 14 feet solid fences, to have a smoke.  Those smokers without a cigarette would go outside as well, hoping to finish any cigarette or, at the very least, to get the butt before disposed to suck out any remaining nicotine.  It wasn't uncommon to see a person take the dispenser off, as one does to empty, and go through the ashes scrounging it like one would do in a dumpster to get get a smoke.

I would go out to smoke, as I looked like anybody else, with a pack of premium Marlboro cigarettes.  I was more than happy to let people bum one cigarette.  I gave it to them for free.  On the outside, I believe the usual and customary charge was twenty-five cents.  I would tell them the next time they wanted a good smoke to go to the front desk and ask for a house cigarette.  I would always leave a carton or two for the nurses to ration out.  It made people's day just a little bit better.

People have always told me that my big blue eyes show kindness.  With kindness displayed by self and with a free premium smoke these people would freely talk with me.  Many identified themselves by their illness rather than by name.  The impact of illness was so great it was if an individual name meant nothing.  They were their illness, yet voluntarily wanted to tell me about themselves.  I didn't have to say anything, only listen.  What I learned would fill a book.  I know Psychiatrists who would love to be able to talk one on one but time only allows to write a prescription or do a medical check.

I was told by a young adult about the voices he heard.  He was doing his best to give me an accurate account.  He used an analogy of a movie where a few people would be able to enter another person's dream and gain influence over the subject.  He did an excellent job of description.  We wanted these voices to stop.  I asked him if he ever told those voices to stop.  "Can I do that?", he asked.  Most certainly.  Those voices can be filtered out.  I suggested he may want to give it a try.  He wasn't possessed.  He was accepting what he didn't want to hear.  That gave the gentleman much thought in the logical part of his brain.

I talked to others and could related to their words.  No one was crazy.  Yes, they did have an illness that needed to be treated.  I couldn't find anyone who sat in the corner and sucked on rocks.  I could conclude that talk therapy was a great method of treatment.  When a person can reveal his most inner thoughts, freely and without consequences there are meaningful things to be said for a healing process to begin.

I ended up needing to smoke 2 cigarettes in the moment so those who wanted to visit had a chance.  It was their choice.

When it was time for me to go back inside there were nurses staring at me, somewhat stunned.  They questioned me about what I had said or done to the person who heard voices.  He had returned inside as if he was a man who had been transformed in to another person.  He apparently had been at the facility for some time.  I stated I had told him to tell the voices to stop.  He was closely monitored for 48 hours and was released.  I can share the technical things about filtering and shielding at another time.

There are too many different types of hearing voices where there is not a single answer but all explanations are quite simple.  The fact that people hear voices is very natural.

I listened and took notes during a webinar where people told their stories about hearing voices.  Each story was different but the keywords that each person used coincided with the others.  I could look down my pages of notes and it looked like the same person was telling these stories.

Each story was one of basic instincts of survival skills.  People know it as the flee or fight scenario.  The problem is the area of the brain the invokes the thought never gets to the area of the brain that applies logic.

Two prominent statements are of killing, killing of self or killing others.  These are deemed as evil commands in today's world of thinking.  Nothing can be further from the truth.  Its perfectly normal, as an instinct.  The kill command of others is staying to fight.  People who are considered a threat activates the kill command.  People you do not like fits the criteria of a threat.  You will hear 'Kill her', 'Kill him', 'Kill them', 'Kill your mother', 'Kill your family', 'Kill the dog', 'Kill your dog' or 'Kill Skipper'.and the such.  Doing so will allow you to survive.  It is a matter of survival, not an evil command.  It is not evil to survive.  Your mission is to survive and multiply.

When the kill command is sent to the logical part of the brain, it can be interpreted.  It can mean 'I don't like you.' or 'You bother me'.  One statement that is becoming common is that of "Mr. Wonderful" from the TV show Shark Tank, who states 'You are dead to me.'.  This does not infer the action of physical death. This means he has no use for you.  You are taking up space on the earth and should be terminated.  You don't fit in his world of financial survival.

To sustain life, you must keep yourself from becoming dehydrated.  You must drink non-contaminated water.  There is a survival instinct for finding clean water.  People who told their stories would mention of themselves or others who hear voices to not drink the water, such as brought in to a meeting room.  Those who have never heard this command can not relate to it.  It is bizarre to hear this.  The fact is the person has had the thought of a survival instinct, the water is contaminated.  More than likely, a form of contamination exists.

It is common to put the water down the drain and allow the person to see where the water is coming from.  The logical part of the brain may be able to determine if the new water is okay to drink  It is also possible that the freshly poured water is again considered contaminated.

I suggest keeping the water that is deemed to be bad and taking that water to your water treatment plant or an independent laboratory for analysis.  Look at the results and see if that person was correct.  You might surprise yourself.

The kill command can also be given to 'Kill yourself''.  This can be seen in the animal kingdom.  It is better to be eaten while you are dead than alive.  Being eaten while you are still alive makes for a terrible death. You can neither flee or fight.  Your instincts can not be used.

It is common while on a long journey and it is known, for whatever the reason, will not make it to their destination, it is again better to be dead than alive.  Animals will kill themselves.  Same is true for offspring that are killed for protection from a terrible death. A clean death comes from a clean kill.  A terrible death comes from a bad kill.

A skilled human who is hunting for food knows he wants a clean kill, one shot that results in death.  A bad shot that doesn't kill is like being eaten while you are still alive, making for a terrible death.  A bad kill is inhumane.

Regretfully, the 'Kill yourself' or 'Kill your offspring' instincts are present in humans with disastrous results when the command does not make it to the logical part of the brain.

To fully understand what I am trying to say takes being in the moment in which it occurs.  You must have a hands on experience to fully understand.  As a peer worker at a community mental health center I had a client who responded to natural kill commands.  In the client's perspective, they had become one who thinks like an animal.  Her children were in danger.  Her response was to kill them for their protection.  She was not successful.  She was told of her actions.  She could not believe that she had acted as such.  Her children stayed with her and would remind her she was a human mother.  The mother was surprised that the children wanted to stay rather than to flee.  Her horrendous thought and actions scared her.  She thought evil had overtaken her.  It had not, but an instinctive command was not transferred to logic.  A synaptic transmission had certainly failed.

Other people can hear analog frequencies and can act as a receiver.  They are picking up radio frequencies that hear people talking.  It may be intermentant or can stay with them 24/7.  Again, the mind can be trained to filter out the frequency and shield itself from hearing these radio frequencies.  Lower frequencies are used that should not be detected yet some hear "government transmissions", knowing they are being listened to.

Hearing voices is something to write about.